thats how it is

so its like that?
you know how when you find out some wack ass news youre just like wow...its like that??
i dnt realy feel like summing up all this bullshyt, and i damn sure dnt feel liek crying so ima just say this, close the computer and walk away.
im better than this, because he's not good enough to me. i wnt say good enough for me b/c that sounds snobbish.
he really thought i wouldnt find out? as many ppl as know, as many homies as i have? you thought this one would slip on by...well i know and i think ive always known that it was in him. i just really hate to find out like this.
this is the second time maybe even more that he's made an ass out of me. i fargave it the first time but this time...not this time.
i really wanted to be that kind of girl that would be worth it to you, that would bring that other side out of you but i guess not, i see not.
i dnt know if im even mad, more hurt really, feelin played really. and im sure when i bring it to him, he'll say it was joke or somethin' but that shyt isnt funny.
cheating, someppl would say its like any kind of intimacy (kissing, hugging, etc) i feel like if youve gotten a little carried away at a party or somethin i could forgive that, atmosphere matters, but if youve sat around and texted and talked to ther ppl....na bro. thats not gon fly. thats investing time and emotion, thats getting to know someone, thats giving my QT to someone else and i never give his QT to anyone.
im a dummy, ill admit b/c at times its true. to have thought that this was worht it, to hav turned down so many ppl-good ppl-trying to be better than that to him and i can never get the same back. stupid on my part for benching the squad when he was playin every sport on every team. im not her, this girl that waits on a dude, takes shyt from a dude, or any other of that bullshyt!
so ya, i got more important shyt to do.