apprehensions II

I'm just afraid to be happy. I've come to that dumbass conclusion. it just seems like, esp in my life, when everything is good-too good, something is bound to go wrong.
let me say this: this is me. I am an honest to God sweetheart and I smile all the time because I am a very "happy" person, in the sense that I enjoy the moments of life and the joy they bring. I dnt like to argue, its exhausting. if I cnt sit down and talk to someone, explain, and let go of something its just not for me. I like things simple, I have a "lets not make this more than it is" kinda mindset about most things, esp about guys. I dnt talk to several ppl at once because off top I'm bad with too many name and I hav terrible time management skills. I like a man man. not too macho to feel but man enough to make me feel like a woman. I wanta see you when its just me and you, save the tough guy for your friends. I like to feel like I've gotten something from him behind closed doors that no one else can see because Ill show a different side when its just me and him (no pun). I give what I get, 'nough said, that goes for most things/situations. I dnt play mind games. if I'm mad you'll know, ill tell you, I dnt hold grudges and pout. I dnt set up little test to see what you'll say, who really has time for that. besides I already know men fail tests, they're dumb. as busy as I am, ill make time, ill squeeze a clock til the last second just to fall back in his arms if that's where I really wanta I be. if I matter to someone I would expect them to do the same. I believe in equality, I need someone to meet me half way on things. at the same time, I'm a lady and I hav very old skool ways about dating. I like a guy that picks you up and pays, now of course on down if yall do get serious ya a girl can drive and pay I'm not that unreasonable about things. but that's if someone should so get to that point. overall being single is cool. I dnt check in, I come and go, I get numbers, give numbers, kick it at will, but after a while it gets lonely and now that its cold...single is no bueno. and I will say that I am more of a relationship kinda girl, I know that I'm a great girl period especially to have on your arm.

so do you like me?
yes no maybe
-xo-