dang shawty! hell you bn?!

i know you missed you cause swettaBOB i missed yall too. sometimes when theres nothing happening theres nothing to say...but in this case truth be told its been WAAAAYYY to much happening to know where to start. this is gonna be real broken and speratic but i just need to say something/reiterate somethings.

thursday evening rambling....

i stepped off a cliff and fell flat on my face.

ive never snitched.

i think im over being single.

but i just cant settle.

i finally got some balls, and then got kicked 'em...shoulda kept my mouth shut.

some ppl say certain things when theyre jealous or really hurt just to get even...but that wasnt very nice and you know it wasnt.

im rapidly going poor...i need a job! im too hirable to be this unemployed!

uhm...brain fart

so my friend..."juice" lol remember him he's entering into a new love and i feel like this one has the potential to be real. as happy as i am...i think im a little jealous. i wantg him to be happy but i wanta know that happiness as well...(girl moment)

im becoming increasingly less trusting of ppl around me.

my friends are the only family ive had the pleasure to grow with, thats why i love them so, thats why i come no matter what, thats why i cant give up on you all.

im sorry.

i hope that you realize i meant what i said and it took me years to get to the point to admit it...

i said i would blog this so here it is.

oooo lets do it!

so i guess ima be a swagger jacker and take the same road as The Bestfriend, i just dnt have the energy or desire really to talk about other ppl's bullshyt ass relationships, about cheating, karma, or how bad i feel for your misfortunes. its not that i dnt care, i do, its that i wnt care because if i offered my advice and if you decide not to take it, its your prerogative. done.
derrion alberts. i posted a video a video of his death but im really disturbed that NO ONE has said ANYTHING about him. everyone is still talking about f'in John and Kate and Letterman. ppl get divorced and we damn sure know ppl cheat! move on. kids in this nation are dying, we're losing an entire generation young ppl no one is addressing this pressing issue. i was just SURE Obama was going to say something, anything because he is from Chicago.....nope, fail. Nas was the first person to address the issue. ill post his video later. but Nas?! NAS!
so rumors flew that Maya Angelou, my personal favorite author, had passed away. when i say i was troubled, baby i was TROUBLED! i dedicated my summer to reading her collection, which i did, and completely fell in love! i always had a love for her poetry but after reading her entire collection of biographies i feel like i know her, i sympathized for her situations. no homo but i love her. no im not named after her CLEARLY her name is Margurite, but i do LOVE my name. not even tmz.com could tell me if she was dead, i had ta get a retweet that she was then a retweet that she wasnt! so im STILL in a state of confused mourning....fail. all of the prominent black ppl, all the trailblazers, and all the hope of our ppl are dying or are already dead...someone has to step up, damn near gon be me. attaining greatness is not something i take lightly...

a rundown of the fuckery which is my life.

point.blank.period.

i have been recently entirely embarrassed, im talkin ass out, if i was white ida bn hot red, yes-EMBARRASSED!
first day of class...the usual fuckery that is the TSU. apparently EVERY girl went shopping together and bought the same damn dress from XXI, i woulda changed.
i met Juice's girlfriend today...straight. if he's happy im elated.
i have come to really appreciate the awesome connects i have, admninistration networking....lovely!
6 of TSU's SGA officials have been removed for insufficient GPA's and credit hours. damn homies...bad look for the university shawty.
i am the new VP for STEA! ya buddy
i am the co-writer for the opinions section of the Meter! rollin like a bug shot
some ppl i missed, others....well there were several others lol.
overall it was straight but im tired as shit now
sick of fighting
sick of trying
sick of this.
i think im beginning to see something in someone that i saw all along but was too afraid to admit...damn damn damn.
highly upset about a recent change in friendship btwn two individuals, thats not gonna help my bestfriend and i at all, thanks a lot!
i guess im up out cause im too tired to function


ps...THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, MY ACEBOONCOON, MY NIGGA ALEESA LEAVES FOR FUCKIN BARCELONA TOMORROW AND ILL BE IN THE USA WITH NO ONE! all the best tho my love, dnt end up like Taken lmao!

my life, your entetainment

so this here blogging has become something of a best friend ((not to be confused with THE Bestfriend)) for me. while it offers no good advice or brings me back to reality, it laughs at all my jokes and accepts all my pain. it listens, which is a lot more than i can say for some friends. never judging ...it cold all be so simple... has welcomed me time and time again with open arms and and even more open ears, maybe i should say keys...hell his metaphor is getting too hard.
im stopping by today to say this "if you read my blog, i thank you" you never realize the effects you are having on ppl's lives by simply being you. i made a promise to myself that this would be the one thing i do for me, my one unchanging outlet, and that no one will censor this. i watch my mouth all day, in here ima keep 110. my life has been kind of hard at times. ive been very stupid about some things. ive had to learn some tough lessons. ive cried. ive laughed. ive apologized. and ive been forgiven. all of which is perfectly captured here, day by day with each post. i received a text this morning, thanking me for a post a wrote bck in june "all the things i couldnt say". she said it really shed some light on her present situation. i feel like anyone can relate to anyone because we're all human and some emotions are just universal. still tho, i feel obliged to share some advice so maybe someone somewhere doesnt have to figh the same battle that i lost. i never even realized so many ppl read this blog and while im flattered im also a little embarassed. i put somethings out here that i normally would have never said. letting ppl in isnt easy at all, some one is like but youre cool with everyone, ya "cool" i dnt let most ppl in past a certain pnt. sorry to my "friends" but i just dnt trust like that. let me clarfy, i trust everyone until you prove to me youre untrustworthy. no, i dnt just walk around confiding in strangers, the contrary, i dnt say anything until i know your trust level = trevel. once that is decided then i assign your depth of friendship and to what extent i will let you in. granted, ive made some mistakes, let the wrong ones too close, kept the right ones too far, even misplaced ppl all together-im human. but my blog has been the been the perfect confidant for all my issues, the perfect praise for all my achievements, the perfect shoulder for my tears, and still the perfect shrug for all my confusion. so if youre reading this, know that i dnt do this for kicks, i do this because i have a dome full of thoughts, ideas, emotions, and stories and i have to get it out or im araid my head with bust and flap around the room like a rapidly deflating baloon, or worse, itll fall of my shoulders and smash like a watermelon.

so much to say

so let me introduce Peaches n Cream. im not gonna say much about him because this is something i really wanna keep low key. but he's got mad potential...today showed me a lot. i still have my reservations and for good reason but he is text book top of the line in most ways.
im gonna keep all the little details to myself for reflection and giggles. ((stop being nasty, it aint even nothin like that))

Mad shout outs to a certain blog {Close to Spectacular/Fantastically Well} that kidd Bestfriend be bloggin bob-damnit. Backed up? nigga i feels you! i was definitely conversing with my TWIN!! and i confided him that a sistah is...lacking the Crown Royal on ice...dig? after departing from my last looooong relationship of lies and bull ive been doing some revamping to myself, re centering my psyche and all that jazz. i have a new fav thing, yes but im not about to take that to the level of intimacy because that takes us waaayy farther than im ready to go. so that last junt had the last go round back in February so some goodgood is now due. that new Jeremiah song...well my bday is rapidly approaching so i think ill be putting that to use, sorry. hell, no im not.

<==A MOVIE REVIEW==> i know, opinions are like assholes, everyone has them, but i HIGHLY suggest that everyone go see Angels and Demons! its a Ron Howard film so you already know it goes HAMM!! the action was great, the drama was stunning. Tom Hanks is my nigga! but really it touches on a lot- the hypocrisy of religion, the parallels of religion and science, the issue of wanting something so badly you do the wrong things to obtain it (im sure there's a word for that but i cnt find it), your own beliefs, the lies in the media. it was awesome Two XO'S waaayyy up! also this is older but i also suggest Vantage Point its good too. so grab a boo and head to a theatre near you- or couch if you got tha buh-buh--buh-buh BOOTLEG! lol

goodnight all its been real

xoxo

hesitating

so i hav yet to write the blog about my first week back, the great new person i met, the road trip to DC that almost killed us! or any of the other things ive scratched into a word document and saved in my phone...idk im just feeling some hesitation. like there's something i know i wanta say but to actually put it into words would mean i would have to really admit it to myself and not just let it be a passing thought that brings a smile or quick realization that makes me shutter.
expectations...ive said it before, ill say it again. expectations will get you fucked up everytime! idk why i know this and cnt seem to apply it to my own life.
ive realized somethings about some ppl that i really find as major flaws. and while it saddens me to an extent i think i already knew all along.
i hav and will continue to form my own opinion of some ppl. just becasue "so and so" doesnt like "whats her name" doesn tmean i have to too...so im not.
my bestfriend is the truth. it takes about 10 hours to get from nashville to our location on the edge of DC, after terrible weather and some 3 hours of a stand still in traffic, like no bull STAND STILL cut yo car off and sit traffic it took us 15 hours. neaither one of us slept! he's a beast and i love him for it.

i just have somethings i need to come to terms with on my end before i tell the world my many many issues......

on second thought

man...i hav so many things to recap, re-tell, update, and conclude....i dnt even kno where to start.
point.blank.period.
the wonder workout is off the chain! like all i need to do is stay on this diet and ill be straight-ya, straight SEXXI lol
me and Lea had a bomb ass talk about boiz, as usual lol. but ive come to a few conclusion about me and mine and about ppl in general:
=i held back for a long time because of my own uncertainties and fears. but we'll cross the bridges when they come. for now lets just stroll.
=no one knows you, like you. if you realize certain things and flaws within yourself its good to admit them to yourself, obviously, but even more so to make sure you dnt inflict unnecessary pain, conflict, etc on those around you. thats really vague but you get the point.
=its about balance. a ying yang, kinda thing. like flowers in a concrete vase...thats so deep.
=benching the squad isnt as easy as it seems lol
=when in doubt, blog it out right? no! just blame it on the alcohol lol jp jp gosh!
=me and reese went to pick up her booskie love, Philly Phil, in memphis today. hilarious.
=memphis is like 3.5 hours away...i did it in 2.5 lol SPEED RAYCAH!!!!
=im so damn sleepy
=i kinda wanted to recap this mini road trip but i just dnt have the energy or the memory lol

xo loves you....g'night

chit chat and matter of fact

so clearly any time me and the bestfriend get on the phone we end up chatting it up for 30 min's at the least. heart him.
with him embarking on a new..."pastime" I'm preparing myself to...share and not be so jealous. dnt expect too much from me tho.
idk why but I havnt been so inclined to blog lately I guess I've been feeling kinda personal.
point.blank.period.
I'm starting the Wonder Workout by Mr. All American. this workout is actually very do-able and should I-scratch that- as I stick to it ill definitely be 175 and hott shyt-scratch that!-hott-ER shyt by summer.
skool shall commence very soon and I'm really about to take advantage of this bomb ass, easy ass schedule and pull all A's again. gotta get the GPA so I can do the things I've set out to do.
fine, fine, fine...ill get a damn job! I know I'm back to being broke and that's not gonna work!
inauguration is in like 2 weeks...wow!!! history baby
definitely need to pay sprint lol them fuck boiz
gotta get emancipated ASAP lol
I'm really gonna buckle myself down for this semester. plan to work and work the plan.
gotta bench the squad, I'm playing one on one now days.
spring break...I think I wanta work because I know I wnt be completely financially sound to blow a week. ill do something tho because I definitely hav this damn ticket!!! ugh, I hav to use this ticket and fly to...somewhere.
senior summer me and my local aces are going to MEXICO! aleesa, the ace booncoon, her family has a time share there so us and our other down ass homegirls, isoke, and ebony, maybe even some of the homeboiz are gonna shake some shyt! that's years away but time clearly flies...
I'm coughing...why? idk but I need to kill that.
I need to go to the store to stock up on wonder workout foods! Whole Foods yayy!
I'm bout ta hop up cop the pumas and run a mile then hit the gym and burn off some shyt.
everything I want is just outside my grasp, now is the time to stretch.

he told me "reach for the stars, sweetheart. cross your heart and fall"

xo loves you, more than words, more than you could ever know.

hello arlington!

ive arrived in DOODLE BOODLE, USA! i really LOVE this neighborhood! so gonna find one to live in when im older. but ya this house....BOMB! we've already made a list of things to steal from this house for me and dorian's apt. we're gonna be some bad bitches in out new home come fall! yayy! for inpedenence!!!
ok so funnies:
tell me why dorian got kicked outta her old room when she move to college and her step mom kept her hello kitty blankie. rude.
"its a kaboodle." "whats that dorian?" "a uhm...shut up youre confusing me." "oh ok...."
dorian's driveway is a really steep right and apparently one day it rained really bad and the hello kitty mobile couldnt scale the incline...sad faced.
"thinkin is for the birds" dorian townsend
"we have the same shower head!" "how did you see that?! can you see thru walls?! can you hear dog whistles too?!"
in a convo about all the old muzik "my brother took a yellow crayon to my Hot Boyz CD!" she was so upset
someone please tell me why dorian has a rolling tray with her laptop on it and it is directly infront of her toilet. ol step into my office lookin ass!
so now we're sitting in her bathroom. im sitting on the potty writing this and dorian is SUPPOSED to be cleaning up, CLEARLY she's sitting on her makeup box looking at me and talking to her new phone tennille...ya ima let her hav that.
dorian has a new lotion....ya its awesome!!!! no more ash! well right now...ya she's white but the day is just starting, dnt judge.
this is gonna be a very funny day stay tuned boiz and girlz

ps im getting a skype today!

point.blank.period.

I was doing the usual pre bed ritual. checked the bookface, read some blogs and was reminded to...blog!
I spent the majority of my day at my bro's, sick. so I fell asleep all sick and mad and woke up REJUVENATED!
the face downers boy I tell ya...they'll cure some things
I'm going to DOODLE BOODLE, US tomorrow or really today. so amped
I was reading the bestfriend's blog which I love! when he writes he always come in chapters, very amusing.
I've often wondered if I've missed the lessons God has tried to teach me because I was blinded by the harshness and need to seek revenge? I was so confused after I got shot, I saw no point in that event. I wasn't a bad kidd. I was actually REALLY good. I got my ass beat- ASS BEAT!- on 3rd and no one, not one MUTHAFUCKIN PERSON helped and I really learned nothing more than I can toss 4 hoes but 7 is my limit. maybe I learned a trust lesson but there so many others to take that quiz I dnt see the need for the severe test I received.
I believe in God because I've seen firsthand the things he can do, heal, and save. in 2009 I wanta get closer to Him.
you've received a second chance here, dnt lose her twice. and yes ill admit when he told me about it I was like yayy! whatever when I got off the phone I was like wait! NO! but I'm working on sharing, not being so selfish and stingy in '09 as well.
oh, hello Baby D, I'm bestfriend. I'm callin permanent shot gun.
me and my bro, james aka mikey were sitting on the couch to day drinkin some bud lights and talking about our relationships. it was odd at first but I'm really happy the 3 of us, and my bro's, are finally at a point where we can relate and be friends.

its 240 I'm going to bed.
ima really do some yappin when I get to DOODLE BOODLE, USA!
xo loves you and dnt you forget it!

i opened this...

because ive had a few things on my mind. several of which, as usual ill keep to myself.
ima just ramble becasue i dnt have one set topic, call it point.blank.period. i call it runnin my mouth...
so some things are progressing and im really happy. you sir, make me happy. way to go for showing the initiative. off to a great start.
apparently nashville sucks deer dingy 'cause nothing is shaking for new yrs. i was gonna try to go to arlington to kick it with doodle but im not sure thats gonna work...
i look like a hebrew slave, i need my hair done. florence, my african-in a nonslave master way, finally brought her 8 language speakin ass back to the US. and im like so...parents im nappy headed who wants to hand over the 180....ya, ya, c'mon. wtf?! i dnt even know what "no" means! fuck yall talkin bout?! i look like a SLAVE! A RUNAWAY SLAVE, at that! im so mad.
walter parker will make a great dadd! its ok to spoil your girls, trust. even if they forget tp say thanks, one day theyll tatt it on their wrists. no better way ta say thanks! lol
peep this GARYtarded! get it??!! ya well get ya shyt together niggas got messages to send and yo ass needs to deliver.
im soooo proud of my bestfriend! he's growing up so fast. you gotta learn to pick the battles, not every risk is worth it. love you more than words.
ok let me say this. i have these friends, a couple. and lately theyve been struggling with a lot of things. i wnt air their business but i will dicuss the impact its had on me, 2 things...(pay attention sir)
1mistakes happen. if i tell you i made a mistake(nothing major), take my word for it, be glad i admitted it, and get over it.
2dnt belittle me or my emotions. if im telling you how i feel about something, if im trying to talk about an issue we're having, or im upset or something; do not make light, make less, or make fun of how i feel. and dnt you dare suggest that any of what i feel is BS. if it matters to me at least try to understand.
i really hate that i ever made my blog so personal to me. if you didnt know me, you'd probably find this blog boring and irrelevant. i made a wise choice not to say names but the majority of the ppl who actually follow this know who each perosn is...so really whats the point?! ima start discussing different stuff, music, art, tattos, fashion, etc. i dnt want this to always be a "dear diary, today i..." so coming soon enough ...it could all be so simple... will start to dabble in other things and leave my heart where it belongs, safe in the caves of my chest.

point.blank.period.

my bestfriend is muthafuckin gangsta! dnt be tested the swag and get yo ass stabbed! get 'em bestfriend but please be careful...
if anyone is calling me tomorrow and I dnt answer, its because I had to hop on a flight to columbus and bail the bestfriend outta jail before the ma dukes in CO/OH monica kills him... lets hope it doesn't come to that...
I love to read dorian's blogs when I have NO IDEA what she's talking about. it makes me feel like I'm a stranger looking in.
I just ate some oven baked pizza, fuckin bomb!
I'm going to the movies tonight just an fyi
my homegirl who lives 2 doors down from me has a little boy, daniel, and while I love both of them dearly I like to come over and experience the motherhood firsthand to remind me I'm sooo not ready for that bullshyt.
I want a new phone! I aint gon play wit yall no damn more.
one of my newest and closest of friends got a blog and I'm sooo damn proud! and she be puttin out some real game...ima be following this closely.
so these were a few random thoughts brought to you by Ms. XO herself.
over and out.

be careful what you ask for

ok. -sigh- idk what it is im even trying to say...
and honestly i think its best to keep this to myself, to us...so ima just say this because these are the things running around in my head

it all used to be so simple, and i want it to stay the same

a path will clear

boundaries, expectations

labels

levels

distance and time

spring, summer, and fall

if youve been through something its your obligation to offer that in advice

over a year

and im pretty sure that made no sense but i probably wouldnt have been able to sleep if i didnt say some of this aloud/on board

lying in bed

and I'm watching The Little Princess. this is like my fav movie ever.
I think I'm getting sick...no bueno-at ALL.
oh, todays menu...spaghetti.
me and dorian are getting a dog! a little yorkshire terrier just like Lucky and we're naming her Agnes Ethel Towntthews. judging?...
I was flicking channels today and saw this man proposing on Oxygen, not like a tank the channel, and it was soooo sweet.
the little girl in this movie, sarah, she's habitual liar. she got all these little girls believing all this bullshyt she be spittin'....and I clearly sound bitter as hell lol
I feel like there's something I wanta say but idk what it is...
danny aka danndann called me today goin off about our psych teacher last semester, she is a bitch but danny took that shyt to heart. so we talk it out and he's like "thanks my-my I love you. t-t-y-l" (like he said the letters) and I was rollin'. I swetabob I love danndann.
I guess I'm outta bullshyt ta say...
if you see my bestfriend, tell him its over. promise broken. fail.

xo loves you, and dnt you forget it.

leave it to my bestfriend/semi point.blank.period

he said it better than we ever could...
"its time to go! get the fuck up out my face"
so eloquent, thanks bff lol
we're all over here trying to make it sweet and metaphorical, fact is we're all getting on edge over little things and we just need ta go our separate ways for a while. dnt expect too much contact, all my local homie's will be back and i gotta kick it extra tough to make up for time lost. i wanta be able to miss yall because the fact is, a few classes a part just isnt doin it for me anymore lol sorry. xo.

so today im spending my happy saturday babysitting, a frequent passtime, and i always seem to learn something new. life lesson number5648971 magnets cnt be eaten. i know they may look delicious my sweet ignorant child but if you put that in your mouth you will choke. and i will laugh. sorry but i told yo ass ta put it back on the fridge. its days like this that i realize ima make a great mommy! but i damn sho dnt want any kidds right now!U-G-muthaf'in-H! these babies are so damn badd some times. game plan: pizza is on its way, baths by 6:30 in bed by 8:30. ill watch hancock once theyre down for the count and do my laundry. ha, the joys of babysitting.

oh so mr all american definitely pissed me off. i was planning to take a little vacation to...the west =) for the weekend right after my final exam but i am poor and i wnt travel broke thats just dumb, and he's gon throw a hissy like im just trippin, no im just smart! ima reschedule tho because i do wanta see tha little whiner.

someone else needs a name...thats all ill say about that. mr...surprise maybe...ill let ya kno

fact is i sleep alone, i cnt get that good facedown action with someone else in my space. im 5'9 slick 5'10 i like ta stretch out and wiggle around, wrap up in my comforter, sleep with my mouth open twitch and stuff lol. i just like ta be alone. sorry mr wonderful, youre still wonderful but this pouting has ta stop lol.

i had a convo with my "little brother" aka lil bro today via texts and he asked about, you guessed it! mr man... ah ha ha haaa. we fell off i told him, and he's all aawww but yall were so cute...lol ya well things change, ppl change, niggas lose they damn minds, etc lol. but really that was probably the first time in a long time that i had thought of us or the lack there of...and ill be real with myself, i miss him. and i doubt he reads this anymore but if you do... i miss you.
whampwhamp back to reality, i returned my cape and bout a bass. RIP loislane...lol

guess who popped the hell up, on some i miss you, can i see you, wear that black dress bullshyt! yurp, once again folks youre right! mr....damn i never named him...okuruhmm...mr...nsa (thats my old high skool and thats where i met him) so ya mr nsa...and ya ive missed him but really is the one person that can get under my skin in the worst of ways. i never can do anything right, i shouldnt have said that (well you shouldnt have asked) and he hates tattoos (i now have 3) its like i go left and he goes right, not that right is correct. matter of fact he is now deemed mr leftright. but i entertained the idea of seeing him when he gets back in town, idk tho...a tad too much pressure.

oh! tell me why a while ago me and dori were talking about greeks and she was like there really is a fraterinty called kappa kappa kappa and she laughs and says ya, put that on a shirt and i chuckle in agreeance and then i was oh! KKK?! thats not gonna be good. ya...i had a moment but that junk was funny. just thought id leave you on a lighter note.

xo out this bit

recap

today, slick-check the time yesterday, was a good ass day.
woke up, leisurely around 12 yawn/stretch
had nice wake up shower. fresh
pulled off a nice fit for the day. snow vest on debit!
headed over to the PAC knocked out a little work
hit up class, very productive. get my learn on.
me and dorian gave some jack in the box the business. yum yum.
took a bomb ass nap, the kind where you wake up all disconbobulated (sp?) all wide eyed and clueless.
watched GREY'S ANATOMY!!! dope.
hit waffle house with Bestfriend Alpha Phi Inc. founded 2008. yurp! full as fuck. scratch that delightfully indulged.
caught up with mr wonderful. =) you get a smile.
and now I'm back in club 608 and its f'in silent in here, it aint beel like this in a min!

cheyah! xo out this bit...

this is my 200th post...

wow...i really run my mouth alot...

but ya, good morning world. i hav decided to turn my lonely frustrations into condtructive energy and rape these papers and knock the hinges off this hiomework! no rubber, no lube, im giving these papers the homework.
after i get back from MacDonalds and the gas station...ya, im procrastinating but perfection takes time. i dnt hav a watch so i hav to take time-chip the ripper!

since im here...
i had interesting chat with a friend of mine and it was the dammit-est things ever. i really hope she sees what she has with him and doesnt jack it! not saying she would...but i really hope she doesnt 'cause that kidds a keeper.
one of my friends is having issues, according to her latest installment of blogging, with her new love interest and i hate to see her frustrated but man i tell ya (i sounded like josh lmao) but bro...niggas and flies.
i havnt heard or talked ta the fank fank...very disappointing.
aight i got shyt ta get crankin on so....in the great words of Walt-P....

XO out this bit.

giggle giggle

so you know how when you post a comment on a blog you hav to put in that little wavey word/random in so it can post. ya well i was trying to post a comment and the word that i had to was ..............FUCKIN-kidd i was rollin. i thought that was funny he he he.
as brandon lively so eloquently put it "im not in the mood to please anybody" sorry if you dnt get pleased today lol no pun
swaghouse is bout ta blow the fuck up! scratch that-we're in here and we showin yall how its done!
i wanta take commercial music ensemble...what do ya think?
i definitley wore rainboots yesterday when it was supposed to f'in rain and today i wear suede boots it f'in rains! bitchass-scratch that, less than favorable elements.
i am seriously bumpin this "fuckin boyfriend" by the bird and the bee f'in love it!
i think im benching somebody and im not sure why.
ok so lets talk about this...
i think he's a really great guy. very intellegent, handsome, but he's senior and i think im hesistant because he'll be leaving soon, idk but i dnt wanta catch feelings and watch him leave...trippin? i might be.
roadtrio anyone? knoxville....
thaknsgiving! yayy!
aleesa mann my official HOMIE is def coming home soon, so cnt wait.
my ass STILL hurts, thanks bestfriend (no pun)

aight dori is here, gotta go
xo

aaawwww...

you know why i love my friends, because they get jealous when i leave them for a guy, tell the bestfriends where i am, grill the shyt outta me when i get back, and love me none the less.
yes, we went to Qdoba. i had a class so we had to rush. good convo. very much a gentleman. and yes, ladies and gentlemen, he's a MAMA'S BOI! we all kno i hav a soft spot for a mama's boi. :-)
bestfriend was mad, he said i was keeping secrets. so not the case, im just private. bestfriend knows any and everything about me and this is/will be most def no different.
i hav done nothing productive today. i didnt go to my 9:40. took my sweet ass time shootin that muthaf'in breeze for a good minute. i love love LOVE waking up slowly. just rollin over, kickin it, facebookin, downloading music, just doin me. and then the loves of my life show up with their infinite laughter and the fun begins. all giggles in krogers. and then i was scolded for leaving-hilarious.
that blog came full circle. and it was rather wack. i usually write better, guess im sleepy. time for a face downer...
to be continued...