well hello Monday

Good morning world. in todays news....
yes Michael is STILL dead. ive decided my fav mike joint was dirty diana. hands down, that was my jam. all of 'em are bumpin but diana wa nasty lil track. i really thought like maybe he would just show up at the BET awards and bring the thrill back into our lives, clearly i was wrong.
speaking of the BET awards...Joe Jackson has got to be about 80 years old, at least. Janet held it together. who did Ne-Yo kiss? did yall peep Kanye and Amber lookin cutesy? loved it. Beyonce killed it i dnt what yall say, grow some class the bitch sang in spanish, or french-hell it damn sho wasnt english. wardrobe lost me but she still ran it. ciara didnt. keri tried, but that was more elvis than michael. mary mary...amen. and the winner is Bey!! jigga man was there...yall know im the BIGGEST Jay fan! the new O'Jays had me and the fam live. Jackie as was too geeked! rollin. then the real O'Jays...eddie is my love! he was bout to DIE up there, sweatin like 4 fat hoes in pleathers. Drizzy Drake Rodgers....'nough said. even though he tore his acl he can still have my babies and ill most def come to any disabled concert he does. tevon cambell...what the hell?! keith sweat! my nigga!! he shoulda did twisted, tho! that was my jam. went download crazy last nite.
so real news now...
the Obamas are in search of a church home. i find that profoundly inspirational. if you seek God and allow him to guide your life imagine what else will fall into place. God bless America. theyve decided on the nondenominational church at Camp David. google it, if youre lost. its a good choice i think.
Billy Mays is dead. yes, the oxy clean guy. i slick bought oxi clean just 'cause he was supa stupid hype.
"Gayby Boom" as in Baby Boom like the 40's. a big discussion has arose about the raising of kids by gay couples. while i could care less what you do behind closed doors, thats between you and your God, but my God is opposed to such lifestyles. i havent the slightest urge to engage in such activities but for those who do i can see the struggle for wanting to be happy, wich is your right, but still being a member of society...thats gotta be tough. so there are all these couples who are having a child, adoption, whatever and ppl are concerned. personally, if the child is well taken care of, loved, and nurtured and the parents arent forcing their lifestyle on them i dnt see y it matters. im sure it may cause issues, like any other family secret but we all have our mountains. pray about it.
alot of deaths this week, thats tough, but know that there is something far better than this...somewhere. thats hard for me to really grasp but i have the faith. do you?
i just finished a 40 minute convo witht he bestfriend, he makes my day. shouts out to him. xo, love.

i really hope everyone has a happy monday. even if its bad, its a day-thats more than Mike can say...

clovapalooza

the sad truth

So my friend vivian aka vivo popped up at my door and she immediately falls to pieces. She just found out that a dear friend was found dead. He was 20 yrs old.
You all know how terrified I am death but its not the dying that scares me, its the when, the how, and the then... I know we're all going to die but I just hope that somewhere there's someone who busts in a room and falls to the floor, holding their chest because I'm gone.
So Father, be with the families, with the heavy hearts and show them some mercy in this their time of loss and bereavement.
Amen
XO

for the first time, in a long time

my house is full of my family. my mom my stepdad, my granny, my brother and his girl and baby in the oven. they arent staying buy ppl are here and im like...wow this is my family. i didnt pick 'em sometimes i dnt even like 'em but this is them. ya, it gets bigger cousins and aunts and -ish but i was justs itting thinking about the ppl that share my name, my blood, and yes walt, my nose and i have to say yes, i love them.
ive come to realize tho that my friends have become a lot like family. so in my brief moment of getting in the season's spirit, if youre readiong this...i love you. and i hope you know because i need you in my life, i love you more than words, and im happy i have you in my life.

power of prayer

so you know my homegirl? my bff? face! ya, her. well lately ive bn catching little hints that something in her fam is going..wrong, i guess. well rumors are tru and always trust your instincts. her daddy's sick. in and out 0f the hospital for TWO WEEKS! and she most def didnt tell me, but thats her-always trying ta be tough. she seems kool but i doubt it. her and her padre arent tha closest of duo's but family is family and i know seeing him weakened is hard for her. esp being that she's so far away and cnt do anything to help-tough. but ya thats been on my mind today and driving to work this was my prayer:

God,

my bff's dad is sick. and ive seen the miracles Youve done, the lives Youve saved, the ailments Youve healed-mostly because Youve done all of that for me. and im asking that Youll do it again now. move in his life in the way no man, no medicine, no science can. im placing this in Your hands because there's left that we can do. idk if its really bad but before it gets any worse, heal. and if this is Your will, to take him now, as untimely and hard as it will be please dnt let him suffer, dnt let him worry. take him in peace, in love. and assure his family that You do all things in due time for good reason. im turning him over to You, Lord. please?

amen.

so if your reading this and youve just read that prayer, i thank you for your prayers. she's my bf and her family is like my family...