hello endorphins!

im feeling lik fuckin Richard Simmons over here! man i did day 1 of the Wonder Workout! ya...definitely hav a ways to go but i actually knocked it out pretty well.

run a mile

leg press 4 sets of 10
leg curls ''

leg extensions ''

squats with the bar ''

-my bro's apt didnt hav a leg press or a free bar so i went ahead and did the stationary bench press 4 of 10 and definitely cnt remember the name of it now but you stand and pull the bar down...ya that one 4 of 10

then!
150 crunches (change it up)

i did: full sit ups, crunches, 6 inches, leg throws, a pilates crunch, and side crunches (no love handles kidds!)

-ggrrrooowwwlllll!!!!!- im a beast! lmao. ima definitely be feeling this in the morning but til then im on cloud 9 endorphins are lovely...

ps we can leave tha bed made up, i can fuck you on the chair! -giggle- oh gucci mane, he's so nasty!

pss girl talk, get up on it

chit chat and matter of fact

so clearly any time me and the bestfriend get on the phone we end up chatting it up for 30 min's at the least. heart him.
with him embarking on a new..."pastime" I'm preparing myself to...share and not be so jealous. dnt expect too much from me tho.
idk why but I havnt been so inclined to blog lately I guess I've been feeling kinda personal.
point.blank.period.
I'm starting the Wonder Workout by Mr. All American. this workout is actually very do-able and should I-scratch that- as I stick to it ill definitely be 175 and hott shyt-scratch that!-hott-ER shyt by summer.
skool shall commence very soon and I'm really about to take advantage of this bomb ass, easy ass schedule and pull all A's again. gotta get the GPA so I can do the things I've set out to do.
fine, fine, fine...ill get a damn job! I know I'm back to being broke and that's not gonna work!
inauguration is in like 2 weeks...wow!!! history baby
definitely need to pay sprint lol them fuck boiz
gotta get emancipated ASAP lol
I'm really gonna buckle myself down for this semester. plan to work and work the plan.
gotta bench the squad, I'm playing one on one now days.
spring break...I think I wanta work because I know I wnt be completely financially sound to blow a week. ill do something tho because I definitely hav this damn ticket!!! ugh, I hav to use this ticket and fly to...somewhere.
senior summer me and my local aces are going to MEXICO! aleesa, the ace booncoon, her family has a time share there so us and our other down ass homegirls, isoke, and ebony, maybe even some of the homeboiz are gonna shake some shyt! that's years away but time clearly flies...
I'm coughing...why? idk but I need to kill that.
I need to go to the store to stock up on wonder workout foods! Whole Foods yayy!
I'm bout ta hop up cop the pumas and run a mile then hit the gym and burn off some shyt.
everything I want is just outside my grasp, now is the time to stretch.

he told me "reach for the stars, sweetheart. cross your heart and fall"

xo loves you, more than words, more than you could ever know.

the drive of despair

start the clock and count the days...im leaving m-town and now and who knows when it will be until i see him again....
maga whampwhamp mega

how come!

how come i cnt write comments on m bestfriend's blog
how come things just cnt be good
how come when shyt aint got nothin-NOT A THING to do with you, you always end up in it
how come you always come in conversations at the moment when things sound so dirty
how come we cnt have a convo without saying no pun, or hav no sexual innuendos
how come we make plans and they dnt work out
how come this blog is gonna sound really ghetto when i read it back-i already know
how come hoes gotta be so damn trif
how come bitches always jockin yo man
how come there is a surplus of business on sale at walmart but niggas always gotta find a way in yours
how come everyone knows im in memphis?!
how come im writing all of this hella damn quick. like im shockin myself with these fire ass typing skills
how come all of mr all american's friends are infatuated with me?! and blogging! like wtf lol
how come i woke up today with the intentions of going home, rolled over, and decided i just need one more day
how come we cnt be alone! ugh
how come i really want way more tattoos
how come situations always have to arise to just really put you in a funk!
how come hoes gotta hate
how come i dnt inherit beef. i think im allergic, honestly
how come i saw an entire girls basketball team from S.C. at cracker barrel and all of them hoes had on bonnets, chanel earrings, colorful socks, and nike flip flops. not at CRACKER barrell black ppl, come now!!!
how come its already 2009, i clearly remember the millenium scare
how come im in the mood to play guitar hero
how come ppl have to compare. CLEARLY im not her. she aint got shyt on me, she'll never be this fly
how come i always end up in some mess for other ppl and hav no idea how i got there
how come i know something, wanta say something, cnt, and feel really badd
how come if this turns out to be EXACTLY what it has been predicted to be...this could be....uhm ya pretty damn bad
how come females wanta jack?! sweetheart thats not cute, i promise its not.
how come im considering deleting my facebook and staying low key
how come i look like a slave! this shyt is no bueno!
how come i have all these damn questions and not one-NOT ONE MUTHAFUCKIN- scratch that!-not the slightest inkling of an answer.
2k9 has got to go up from here and its not even that its all that bad but i really need to be making major moves.

no homo

but somethings and some people are worth fighting for and ill go 12 rounds for you kidd. i love you some kind of awful ooskie

no homo

you's my nigga!

well damn day 1...

you kno how you never had intentions of making someone feel bad, used, unappreciated, or the like and that's how it ended it up coming off...you kno how BADD that makes you look and feel. I've always been the one to taken advantage of and forgotten and now that I'm getting the very clear feeling that I've done that to you...I'm more than sorry, ever so apologetic, and so sad. mostly because I know I was wrong. I didn't see it as being wrong as events beyond my control were happening and somethings I thought at the time for the best but when it was brought to my attention and I saw it in your face it was like a knife just like "way to go Maya its only the first day!" usually I could care less if someone is mad or offended by something I do but that couldn't be less tru right now. before I really lie down ima pray that God would show me this from the other point of view because I wanta better understand so that sincerely I can know the other party's feelings and logic......................................................................................................................................................................................................(sorry but I really need to stop and do this).................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. and He did just like I knew he would. I was just instantly remind of this EXACT situation and how I felt and kno that I would never-NEVER-want someone I care about this much to feel that way. sorry wnt fix it and any other apologies just dnt seem sincere when you've been hung out to dry I already know. so now I'm in a rock and a hard place (never shoulda let myself get here) but I gotta wedge myself out, and not even for my own discomfort but for her's.
xo is biting the bullet.

ps I definitely wrote all of this last night and never posted it.
pss I'm too scared to go read blogs this morning.

time flies

ill prolly do a deep reflecttive blog later but for now....FUCK THE DUMB SHIT ITS '09 BITCH! I'm bout ta be so on it this yr, watch the kidd!
so today I partied with Arlington's finest aka doris old friend. definitely some cool ass kidds. love them all!
short chat wit walt that nigga twisted the fuck up! I aint just get tossed but I reached that good feelin that I was aiming for.
now I'm with mr all american to confirm its a new yr. lol keep up!