hey maya, they killed your friend

wait what?! ya thats how i got the news that the kid across the street from my parents. the kidd i grew up with is dead. idk if its more upsetting that he was a good kid, that he wasnt doing the wrong thing, that it was a stray bullet, or that i feel guilty for still being alive. every so often when someone dies i feel this overwhelming guilt for surviving. i feel so bad, maybe not that im alove but that he didnt make it. a single shot to the head. he was in atl, i was just there, and they call his family to get to atl and by morning they have to unplug him because his organs were failing. unplug your own child?! like i couldnt imagine.

my prayers go to his family. im sorry seems so pointless but Lord knows im so sorry.

if you learn nothing from this blog, nothing else from my existence learn this: every day is a blessing. if it was good or bad it was a day. someone else never got that. be happy, CHOOSE to be happy. despite the everyday bullshit that life brings i love it. i hope you do too...

RIP kiddo, see you on the other side.

wait let me vent! STOP ALL THIS FUCKIN POINTLESS ASS VIOLENCE! YALL MUTHAFUCKAS NEED TO LEARN TO TALK ABOUT SHYT AND STOP POPPIN THESE WEAK ASS GUNS! THESE PEOPLE ARE SOMEONE'S CHILD, SOMEONE'S SIBLING! STOP ROBBING FAMILIES OF THEIR LOVED ONES! IM SO SICK OF THIS SHYT LIKE IT FRUSTRATES THE HELL OUTTA ME THAT YALL IGNANT ASS KIDDS NEVER GOT A DAMN HUG SO YOU JUST WANNA KILL KILL KILL LIKE WHAT THE FUCK! FATHER FORGIVE ME BUT YALL SHOULD BURN IN HELL FOR THE PAIN YOUVE CAUSED!